Anniversary 2

I'm stumbling around
spilling pills on the floor
watching them roll
like fat white rollie pollies
under the bed

The taste of last night
old news and disappointment
is still in my mouth

I've felt your bare weight
on me
three times since you pulled the plug
Each time I know you
can hear it
in my breath
panting

let me die
let me die
let me die

Waffle Cone

In my mind
I picked up the phone tonight
dialed your number and said
I feel like chocolate, you?
You said
Hell
Yes

and we met at a fast food place
and sat on cold plastic seats
and licked and licked
until our brains froze
and laughed and laughed
until our smiles froze
at which time I secured
a small chunk of rocky road
on the end of my
spoon
and flicked it into your hair

and it was war

I drove home sticky and feeling like
rainbow sherbet
wondering why
I can't stop writing poems about you

Solitaire

Cold sheets against soft skin
It's the middle
of the day

A breathy breeze
blows in through
the window

In ten minutes
I half scream
half mumble
the first syllable
of your name

twice

And wish you were here
to smell my hair
afterward